CHAMPAGNE TASTE . beer bottle pockets

-O, man women are so overly sexualized in this industry, esp. when they are lesbians. The fact is, while the heterosexual world is weirded out by the ideals of a same-sex relationship, it is more acceptable for to women to love one another, but only for the entertainment of a man. This entire dynamics of the watcher vs. the watched is causing our entire concepts of what is womanhood to crumble. Just look at how young girls dress. and whenever you see an ad for anything just look at how it is either direct for a man to look at it and become aroused in some sort of way, or for a woman to yearn over x product so she can obtain the same looks that said subjects would obtain if a man was looking at it. *Sigh* sometimes i wonder if even having this knowledge is useful, since I don’t have the power to change anything…

P.S. Dude sitting on the bench outside of Walters: Can you please stop staring down my shirt as you talk to me? And why are you even talking to me anyway? And … um … no I actually don’t want you number … gosh I’m a lesbian people. Nothing and nobody is going to change that- despite popular belief… 

[It’s just a matter of time before they learn]

Its extermly early and I didn’t even go to boot camp today. Chlo is my alarm clock bu we didn’t get up. Yesterday we took a nap and we didn’t get up. I’ve really got to push myself now that I am quite comfortable. I need to find my own little niche. I spend most of my time with her. Not that it is a bad thing, it is just restricting. This has happened before; me getting comfortable with just ONE friend. I need to go on some of the adventure that the Probo has planned. It seems tho as if all of the GEMS are stuck wit those we met this summer. Or atleast to me. I just know that I see them together alot.

By the way, my breakfast today is yogurt. Yep! Yogurt! I’m in boot camp now and my diet is very restricted. Yesterday though I gave in to my sins and had some icecream. Yea, I know bad girl, but in my defence I was told to eat soft cold foods like icecream. Why, you might ask well I got my tounge pierced! And this lil fuxer hurts so bad! But aye I’m kinda stuck with it now.

I want to get a tattoo also but I have to save my money. If all goes well me and Chlo wil take a gaycation to Orlando. I really want to go to universal Studios. The trip will cost somewhere around 300. So I have to put alot of restrictions on what I can and can not buy. I am super excited about it though. The first thing I MUST buy though is an alarm clock. I am currently NOT on my -ish when it comes to my school work.

Well, I have to go now. I need to finish this “yummy” yogurt and then bathe and then off to the library I go

-Toodles MKAY<3

hmmm . what i wouldn’t give . honestly though im really tired of the way things are going . it seems like a sick cycle somtimes . like i know things wont change overnight . im not gonna wake up one day and see the change right there in front of my eyes . This doesnt bother other kidds like it bothers me and i wonder like “am i the only person constantly thinking about this”. hmmmm . i might be .

I was watching this movie with my mother once. Its was about this man that lived this life on a TV show. It was called the Truman Show. Yay, Im gladd I remembered the name of that show that would have racked my mind all day. Okay so he lived this entire life in this planned and blissful little world, but like in the background all this other stuff was going on. Like I wouldn’t be able to be that ignorant. I wouldn’t want to be that ignorant about things. Don’t smile in my face, while thinking naughty things about me.

i wouldn’t want you to fill me up only to relize that it was nothing but hot air. i dont want the carpet pulled from beneath me.

And heres what I recieved:

Lesbians- The Natural Way

Night or Day, Lesbians is your way

The Art of Lesbians (my personal fave)

Lesbians put the world to sleep.

Nothing over Lesbians

…lol so next i put in “Lesbihonest” and got

Tomorrow is Lesbihonest Day

-so yea tell all ya closeted friends to come out a celebrate :D

…yep…this is the sad -ish i do at 7am